Sunday, March 7, 2010

An stad deirneach

By Christ, it's been a long time. I can almost smell the must.

There's a reason I've left this lie idle. It's not as if there's a lot I want to impart, explain and outpour. It's just that there's no way I possibly can without causing ructions.

Believe me, there's a lot I want to say. There's a lot I should have said and there's a lot that I may say. But what's done now is done, and there's no changing the past. The future looks bright, but dimmed slightly because I turned off the lights a long time ago.

I needed to do what I did. It's not about my own happiness, it's about that of others. That's what I was always led to believe.

So why don't I take any satisfaction from it? No point in asking now. Just deal with it.

I'm probably going to delete this whole sordid experiment soon enough. I'm posting far too infrequently for it to remain a worthwhile exercise and there are thousands of millions of others who have far more interesting things to tell you than I. This has been nothing but a forum for my own self-involved rantings and it needs to die a death. Reflections are for mirrors (god, what a cheesy line.)

There.